SpookyTom-SOBGR

IN HINDSIGHT THIS READS KINDA CORNY BUT I AM LEAVING IT FOR OTHER CORNY PET OWNERS.

IF YOU DECIDE YOU WANT A DOG START OUT BY EDUCATING YOURSELF ABOUT THE BREED. FIND OUT IF THEY ARE A YARD DOG OR COMPANION BREED AND THEN DECIDE IF YOUR LIFESTYLE CAN SUPPORT THEIR NEEDS. WHEN I GREW UP MOST KIDS GOT A PUPPY FROM THE SO CALLED 'FAMILY DOWN THE STREET' AND THEY WERE RARELY PURE BEING A MIX OF MANY BREEDS. NOW WITH THE INTERNET THERE IS NO EXCUSE FOR NOT KNOWING. IF I HAD EDUCATED MYSELF BUGGAR WOULD HAVE BEEN SPAYED, HAD A YEARLY CHECK-UP AND CONSTANT HEART WORM PROTECTION AND I WOULDN'T FEEL LIKE SUCH A TOTAL LOOSER NOW.	"BUGGAR" (01-27-97 - 04-18-09)	"GET YOUR DOG SPAYED OR NEUTERED YOUNG, KEEP YOUR DOG ON HEART WORM MEDS AND TAKE YOUR DOG IN FOR REGULAR CHECK-UPS AT LEAST ONCE A YEAR"............. .............AND YOU WON'T HAVE TO FEEL THE GUILT I WILL WHEN THE END COMES. GRIEVING IS BAD ENOUGH SO DON'T ADD REGRET TO THAT! 05-18-09 BUGGAR PASSED AWAY YESTERDAY AND THE GRIEF I FELT UPON WAKING TODAY IS STUNNINGLY PAINFUL. I SURE MISS HER.
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04-30-09 BUGGAR HAS BEEN MORE THAN A FRIEND OR COMPANION, THERE PROBABLY AREN'T WORDS TO CONVEY HOW IMPORTANT SHE HAS BEEN TO ME. SHE TAUGHT ME THAT I DO HAVE A HEART AND THAT I AM LOVABLE AND THAT I CAN RETURN THAT LOVE. I HAVE NEVER BEEN A DOG LOVER AND NEVER UNDERSTOOD PEOPLE MISSING WORK AND GRIEVING TERRIBLY WHEN THEIR DOG DIED. I ONLY HAD ONE DOG WHEN I WAS A KID AND WHEN WE DIDN'T CONNECT HE BECAME MY MOM'S DOG. TWELVE YEARS AGO I SPENT A LITTLE TIME WITH A MALE DALMATIAN PUPPY AND FOR SOME ODD REASON ASKED ABOUT A FEMALE. I WOUND UP WITH A FEMALE WHICH HAPPENED TO BE THE LAST OF THE LITTER AND VERY, VERY SICK. AFTER A WEEKEND OF VOMITING AND CRAPPING I TOOK HER TO THE VET AND AFTER A SHORT EXAMINATION HE INFORMED ME THAT SHE HAD PARVO AND FURTHER EXPLAINED THAT PUPPIES USUALLY DON'T SURVIVE. HE EXPLAINED WHAT HE WAS WILLING TO DO AND HOW MUCH IT WOULD COST I SIGNED THE RELEASE AND HE SENT ME HOME WITHOUT MUCH HOPE. NOW I ONLY KNEW HER FOR 3 DAYS AND WAS WILLING TO SPEND ALMOST A THOUSAND DOLLARS TO SAVE HER SO SOMETHING MUST HAVE CLICKED RIGHT AWAY, MAYBE CHEMISTRY OR MAYBE JUST HAVING A HELPLESS ANIMAL DEPENDING ON ME FOR HER LIFE. AFTER A WEEK OF ANTI-BIOTICS THROUGH THE I.V. AND SPOON FEEDING BROTH I GOT A CALL I WAS DREADING. THE VET SAID COME GET HER AND I CLIMBED INTO MY CAR EXPECTING TO PICK UP A DEAD PUPPY BUT TO MY AMAZEMENT HE BROUGHT OUT A SCRAWNY COVERED WITH POOP LITTLE WHITE DOG WITH A WAGGING TAIL. EVEN HE COULDN'T GET OVER HER WILL TO LIVE AND HOW NO MATTER HOW BAD THINGS HAD LOOKED SHE ALWAYS HAD A TAIL WAG FOR HIM. AFTER GLADLY PAYING UP HE HANDED HER OVER AND SHE LAID HER HEAD AGAINST MY CHEST AND LOOKED LIKE SHE HAD ALWAYS BEEN WITH ME. AFTER A FEW DAYS OF RECOVERY WE STARTED OUR TREK AS MASTER AND DOG WHICH QUICKLY BECAME DOG AND MASTER. BECAUSE SHE HAS AN INSATIABLE DESIRE TO PLEASE HOUSE TRAINING WAS A BREEZE. SHE WOULD OCCASIONALLY PICK UP A VIRUS AND I WOUND UP CLEANING CRAP AND VOMIT. NOT KNOWING A LOT ABOUT DOGS AND BEING A LONER MYSELF I PUT HER IN THE BACK YARD DURING THE DAY AND BROUGHT HER IN AT NIGHT. SHE HATED EVERY MINUTE AWAY FROM ME AND NOW THAT I KNOW THAT DALMATIANS ARE COMPANION DOGS I REGRET HAVING DONE THAT. BY ABOUT THE THIRD YEAR I MOVED HER INSIDE 24/7 AND OUR RELATIONSHIP STARTED GETTING STRONGER. OVER THE YEARS I LEARNED HOW CLEAVER SHE IS AND HOW MUCH SHE LIKES TO BE WITH ME. I RETIRED IN 2004 AND A NEW PHASE OF MY LIFE BEGAN AND BEING WITH HER ALL THE TIME I STARTED LEARNING MORE ABOUT HER. I GOT TO SEE HER REACT TO DIFFERENT THINGS LIKE OTHER ANIMALS AND PEOPLE AND FOUND THAT I DIDN'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT BITING. I STARTED COLLECTING OLD HONDA MOTORCYCLES IN 2006 AND WHEN I MADE A TRIP FOR A PICK-UP SHE WAS RIGHT THERE WITH ME AS MY GOOD WILL AMBASSADOR. SHE HANDLES TRAVELING LIKE A CHAMP AND ALL I NEED TO TAKE ALONG IS A DRINKING BOWL AND LEASH. ON ONE TRIP WE STAYED OVER AT A MOTEL AND SHE CURLED UP NEXT TO ME AND SLEPT ALL NIGHT. LAST YEAR SHE DEVELOPED MAMARIAN CANCER THAT I DISCOVERED COULD HAVE BEEN AVOIDED IF SHE HAD BEEN SPAYED AS A PUP. NATURALLY I FELT LIKE HELL BECAUSE OF MY IGNORANCE AND HAD THE TUMOR REMOVED. I CHOSE NOT TO KNOW IF IT WAS MALIGNANT AND TOOK HER HOME TO RECOVER. AFTER A FEW SLOW DAYS SHE BECAME AS PERKY AS A PUPPY AND I COULD SWEAR THAT SHE REALIZED THAT WE HAD HELPED HER BY HER LEAPING INTO MY LAP EVERY TIME I SAT DOWN. AFTER MANY, MANY TRIPS PICKING UP BIKES SHE FINALLY SHOWED HER AGE LAST FALL AND AFTER RETURNING FROM TEXAS IT TOOK SEVERAL DAYS FOR HER TO RECOVER. I ALSO NOTICED HER HAVING DIFFICULTY LAYING DOWN AND AFTER ANOTHER EXAM WAS TOLD THE CANCER WAS BACK. A CRUSHING REVELATION ESPECIALLY WHEN THE VET SUGGESTED I TAKE HER HOME AND ENJOY THE TIME SHE HAS LEFT. IT'S REALLY HARD TO RELAX AND ENJOY ANYTHING KNOWING THAT YOU BEST FRIEND IS TERMINAL SO FOR THE LAST 6 WEEKS SHE HAS BEEN GOING WITH ME ON SHORT TRIPS AND GETTING A LOT OF CHEESE BURGERS AND PIZZA. THERE HAVE BEEN 3 EPISODES OF HER NOT BEING ABLE TO STAND AND BECAME SCARED AND POOPED ALL THE WHILE WAGGING THAT TAIL. THERE ISN'T MUCH I CAN DO NOW EXCEPT WAIT AND HOPE SHE GOES EASY. I DON'T THINK I COULD TAKE HER THERE TO BE PUT DOWN MOSTLY OUT OF SELFISHNESS NOT WANTING TO LOSE HER BUT I AM TOLD BY OTHERS THAT I WILL KNOW WHEN IT IS TIME TO END THE PAIN. ONE THING IS FOR SURE, I WON'T BE ABLE TO TELL BY HER ETERNAL TAIL WAGGING. HERE ARE SOME PICTURES OF MY BUDDY.............

SHE RELATES THE FUTON AND RECLINER VERY STRONGLY TO ME, ESPECIALLY THE RECLINER. WHEN I LEAVE THE HOUSE FOR MORE THAN A FEW MINUTES SHE PLACES HERSELF ON IT AND PROBABLY DOESN'T MOVE UNTIL I WALK THROUGH THE DOOR..		THE THINKER


IS THIS ANY WAY FOR A LADY TO ACT	CAN I WATCH LASSIE

		I LOVE YOU

LOOK INTO MY EYES!!!	EEEEEEEEEH HAAAAAAAAAA	WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING AT?

FEED ME!!!!	INSPECTING MY NEW/OLD CB750	SPIDER BITE............OUCH
05-14-09 HER RESPIRATION RATE HAS BEEN ELEVATED FOR A COUPLE OF WEEKS AND TODAY IT IS AT ABOUT 60 SO I AM KEEPING A CLOSE EYE OUT. THE TUMOR HAS BECOME SO LARGE THAT HER DIAPHRAGM IS PROBABLY GETTING CROWDED. I TOOK HER TO A SMALL PARK TODAY AND SHE WAS ALL OVER THE PLACE AND WORE ME OUT BUT SOONER OR LATER SHE WILL HAVE TO BURN OUT. I WAS TOLD THAT I WOULD KNOW WHEN IT IS TIME TO HAVE HER PUT DOWN BUT I AM PROBABLY TO MUCH OF A COWARD TO TAKE HER TO DO IT. THE TUMOR IS LEAKING A FOUL SMELLING LIQUID THAT SHE DOESN'T LIKE ANY MORE THAN I DO SO I AM WASHING HER BEDDING EVERY DAY. SHE IS FINICKY ABOUT THAT AND SHOWS HER APPRECIATION BY IMMEDIATELY PLOPPING ONTO THE BLANKETS AS SOON AS I PLACE THEM. IT'S ODD, SHE IS DOING THE SUFFERING BUT ALL THAT I CAN THINK OF IS ME FINDING MY WAY WITHOUT HER. I CAN HARDLY REMEMBER A TIME THAT SHE WASN'T HERE AND REALLY CAN'T IMAGINE LIFE WITHOUT HER. SHE IS THE ONLY FEMALE BESIDES MY DAUGHTERS THAT REALLY LIKES ME AND I WILL MISS THAT. NOT BEING A DOG LOVER I HAVE NO PLANS TO GET ANOTHER DOG. IF I DID I WOULD SURE DO THINGS DIFFERENTLY NEXT TIME AND WOULD STICK WITH A FEMALE DALMATIAN BUT NO MATTER HOW LONG I MIGHT WAIT I WOULD FEEL LIKE I WAS REPLACING THE IRREPLACEABLE. 05-16-09 SHE HAD ANOTHER SEIZURE THIS MORNING AND CRAPPED ALL OVER THE PLACE AND HERSELF. I HAVE DECIDED THAT AFTER THE NEXT ONE I WILL HAVE HER PUT DOWN. AS CLEAN AS SHE LIKES TO BE I CAN IMAGINE HOW MISERABLE SHE IS. BEFORE HAVING IT DONE WE WILL SPEND A COUPLE OF HOURS AT ONE OF THE WALKING PARKS AND THEN TO THE VET'S OFFICE. IT WILL BE A SURREAL DAY THAT I AM NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO. ...............AFTER A DAY OF CONTEMPLATION AND DISCOVERING THAT ON TOP OF THE CANCER HER RIGHT REAR LEG IS QUITE SWOLLEN I HAVE DECIDED TO SET UP AN APPOINTMENT FOR MONDAY OR TUESDAY TO HAVE HER PUT DOWN. SHE IS OBVIOUSLY IN PAIN AND IT IS UNFAIR TO KEEP HER LOOPED ON PAIN KILLERS JUST SO I CAN FEEL HER SOFT FUR AND HAVE HER REST HER CHIN ON MY KNEE. KNOWING HER I REALIZE THAT THE LOOK I AM GETTING TODAY TRANSLATES TO "I HURT, HELP ME", THE SAME LOOK SHE GAVE ME LAST JULY WHEN THE FIRST TUMOR WAS REMOVED. I HAVE BEEN READING WEB SITES ABOUT DOG EUTHENISATION AND WILL MAKE ARRANGEMENTS FOR HER TO BE PLACED INTO A CONTAINER FOR BURIAL. I HAVE A SPOT SELECTED IN MY BACK YARD THAT IS AWAY FROM ANY UNDERGROUND UTILITY CONDUITS THAT MIGHT REQUIRE A FUTURE MOVE. I HAVE A CONCRETE HEAD STONE THAT I USED ON HALLOWEEN YEARS AGO THAT WILL BE PERFECT AS A MARKER. I AM GOING TO KEEP A SORT OF DIARY ONCE SHE IS PUT TO REST SO OTHER PEOPLE IN MY SITUATION CAN HAVE A REAL LIFE PERSON TO RELATE TO.
BUGGAR'S LAST FULL DAY 05-17-09


LEG TO THE SIDE SO SHE CAN LAY	I HAVE NEVER SEEN HER LOOK WORN DOWN LIKE THIS BEFORE


	THIS PICTURE BELIES THE SIZE OF THE TUMOR AND THE SWOLLEN LEG IS APPARENT

SHE WAS ALL OVER THE YARD THIS MORNING WHICH IS THE BEHAVIOR THAT MAKES IT HARD TO END HER LIFE BUT LAST NIGHT WAS AWFUL SO I LET HER HAVE THE FUTON AND I SLEPT ON A COT IN ANOTHER ROOM. SHE WEARS OUT BY NIGHTFALL TRYING TO MAINTAIN THE 60 PER MINUTE RESPIRATION RATE.

HAVING SOME DIFFICULTY WALKING. THE SWOLLEN LEG LOOKS LIKE IT IS FULL OF FLUID. CANCER IS A HIDEOUS WAY TO GO.	TWO SIGHTS IN THE BACK YARD I NEED TO CHOSE BETWEEN FOR HER GRAVE. ONE IS IN THE SOUTHWEST CORNER AND THE OTHER BELOW THE SECOND STORY BALCONY. I AM LEANING TOWARDS THE CORNER BECAUSE IT RECEIVES A LOT OF SUN AND WOULD SUPPORT FLOWERS.
AT 11:22 A.M., 05/18/09 BUGGAR PASSED AWAY.